mmm, i havent written an entry in a while, so i shall write one now as i sit in eric noh’s dorm… XD woot
its 2 in the morning but everyone is still pretty much awake. even though two of my friends are canoodling in a bunk (they’re both guys -_-), we’re all kinda awake XD. so it is now officially the start of week 5 of my “no game bet” and it has been going pretty well ^^, except… i am still short on time. now instead of playing games i do a multitude of other activities: guitar, download / watch movies, etc ( i even have time to read the bible thanks to the insistence of some ;D). funny, since removing an activity that took up such a large chunk of my time and virtually left me with nothing to do, i have sought to fill that void, the emptiness… the worthlessness -_-. i wonder if thats how all human beings are. i surmise that we are all finding busy work to do in order to either give our life meaning, to “create” a reason for existence, or to concentrate on things at hand and avoid the big question of why. actually, maybe some people don’t really care. i exist, other people exist, but why does everything exist? do we gain the reason for our existence over time (ie i exist to avenge someone or something, take care of my family, etc) or is it that everything has a set reason for existence (basically God-based / higher being related reason)? regardless i dont know what to think, similar to my current situation with girls. lately, i’ve been feeling so scum because of girls. eff that shiz -_-. a utopian society would be a population of nongender animals. if you think about it, half the conflicts of this world are caused by either moeny or women and so without a difference between men women there would be half as many problems XD. wow i am so tired… this was a short entry but i’m very close to passing out -_- i’mma just close my eyes for a little bit more tomorrow a;kv asfkbv sdlkbm s
josh
