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i finally found the time (and the will) to start posting again… :D

summer has finally arrived!! day after dreadful day of school we have endured, but the senior class of 09 has made it. we stand now from the pinnacle of our high school careers only to be pushed off later to start our journey once again in college. eh but who cares, i’m pretty excited. looking back on the year now, i can’t say i’ve done or achieved much -_-;; and i should say something doesn’t feel right or empty, but i feel right as rain XD actually now that i think about it… i guess i have achieved some stuff LOLS. let’s see… i (or at least i think) grew out of the name dirty josh cause i take showers everyday now so blah to you haters, mmm i finally started wearing jeans again and i finally have shirts of my own that i didn’t get from some church related event, i went 12 weeks without touching a single electronic game, i went to New York for the first time of my life (then had whitecastle on the way back :P ), finally bought a suit that fit me, got caught for speeding, got accepted into virginia tech, if you’re reading this gj, graduation week, DYNASTY, turning legal, read a book because i wanted to (hasn’t happened since middle school), saw our nation elect it’s first black president, no seriously gj, senior banquet, and much more but i can’t remember them all cause it’s kinda late o.o

senior banquet has made me realize how ungrateful and how blind i was to all the loved ones in my life, who have blessed me and honored me with their company. i never truly knew the magnitude or the impact that these people have had on my life. i know i can be weird at times… so how do they put up with me?? i don’t think i can put up with me -_- lol i was gonna do a shoutout kinda thing… but i’m totally failing, because i don’t wanna leave anyone out and there are a lot of people that need to be thanked :P i dunno in the end, even though i may not express my affection explicitly, just know it’s buried under layers and layers of awkwardness and manpride… but rest assured, the care and the love is there. i feel like i’m giving my deathbed speech so let’s stop this nonsense and talk about something happier

so today i’ve watched a walk to remember in it’s entirety for the first time… that movie in a word: ownage. even though the cheesiness of the comet scene is still bugging me, that movie was still amazing. makes me envious though -_- i wish i could find someone like jamie (jamey? i dunno), except minus the leukemia. mmm hopefully God has something similar in store for me :P hehe since we’re on the topic of movies, i’ve picked up a kind of cliche life motto from the dead poet’s society. Carpe diem; seize the day. life is too short to waste idle breaths and thoughts scheming and planning. instead, from now on… carpe diem (hopefully you get the point, i didn’t want to go off on a metaphor gay tangent o.O) zahhhh so late, updates later so farewell and adieu lols that was gay

josh

i have only come to realize how inconsiderate i am, in a word… selfish. mmm i need to start posting again, but not today though, too tired and too stressed -_-

josh

as of yesterday, i have officially picked up bboying

josh

mmm, i havent written an entry in a while, so i shall write one now as i sit in eric noh’s dorm… XD woot

its 2 in the morning but everyone is still pretty much awake. even though two of my friends are canoodling in a bunk (they’re both guys -_-), we’re all kinda awake XD. so it is now officially the start of week 5 of my “no game bet” and it has been going pretty well ^^, except… i am still short on time. now instead of playing games i do a multitude of other activities: guitar, download / watch movies, etc ( i even have time to read the bible thanks to the insistence of some ;D). funny, since removing an activity that took up such a large chunk of my time and virtually left me with nothing to do, i have sought to fill that void, the emptiness… the worthlessness -_-. i wonder if thats how all human beings are. i surmise that we are all finding busy work to do in order to either give our life meaning, to “create” a reason for existence, or to concentrate on things at hand and avoid the big question of why. actually, maybe some people don’t really care. i exist, other people exist, but why does everything exist? do we gain the reason for our existence over time (ie i exist to avenge someone or something, take care of my family, etc) or is it that everything has a set reason for existence (basically God-based / higher being related reason)? regardless i dont know what to think, similar to my current situation with girls. lately, i’ve been feeling so scum because of girls. eff that shiz -_-. a utopian society would be a population of nongender animals. if you think about it, half the conflicts of this world are caused by either moeny or women and so without a difference between men women there would be half as many problems XD. wow i am so tired… this was a short entry but i’m very close to passing out -_- i’mma just close my eyes for a little bit more tomorrow a;kv asfkbv sdlkbm s

josh

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